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im soo boreDDD!!!...thiss holiday kindaaa Suckss..in a way...cuz im bored half the time which is jus extremelyy depressingg!!!....i guesss i hvae actuallyy adapted to my veryyy hectic life for the past 3 monthss now i just feel like a slug..lost with nuthing to do...ahahaha..anwayss i guess its gooodd to get the rest..:)...oh my gosh i think im slowly turning into a shopoholic...hahaha...not funny...its weird..in a week i bought 4 different tops, jeans ,2 earringss and i bought heels just now..goshyness...but i love them alll!!!!!!....make me soo happyy..tralalla...ahahha...i cant wait for my ballet flats...:P....i need more earringss...!!!!..ok i better stoppp...this shouldnt be happenin to me cuz dil's the shopoholic!!!..ahahhaha....byebyebye...my loveydubeys

lalalala...hehehe...i had da most beutifull oFFF the beautifullest dayss eveRrrr...welll first first i my 2yeAr on tuesday..ahahha...Clap*clap*.....love you..:)...heheh....i saw him in the evning but just for a tiny bit bit..but it was stilll veli saweet...heheh...ermm....cant believe its been 2years things past sooo fastt..itss kinda scary cuz things that are normal can just slip away and when u finally realise it.. its alredi goneee...so yeah..Evryone live lifee..to the fullest..cuz u nevr know..whos not gona be there to share those lil momentzz that seemss soo insignifcant but will one day mean soo much...and i mean it evry aspect of ur lifee..not just relationshipss...jjust evrything...and just dun waste ur timeee thinking or wishing for thingss that willl juust never BEeee....forget abt wanting the significant other to change for u...change for ur FREeaking selff...cuz time dunt wait for you...so why wait for anyoone!!...not saying u shouldn give abt the thoughts of otherrzz..but just know that ur opinion is the most important..rite?..be happyy be happyy..best you can...even when u feeell u you CANT...FREAKING HELLLL...just shake it off!!!!....and laugh abt itt....i mean GOSHHHh life is too beautifulll....oh mann i wanna SCREAmm..i can bee happyy!!!!...i just have to sitck by it and take on all the responsibilities that it bringgs..cuz nuthing in thisss life is easyy....i guesss evry teenager knowss that...hahaha..decisionss decisionss!!!..i feeell sooo hypedd cuz i feeelll soooooo SSOOOO invinsibblee...hahahah..what a tremendous break through this iss.....!!!!!.....i dun have to depend on no onee...cuz i am who i am..and i am great with alll my faults and flawss...and anyone who disagreesss i politely ask u cancel this site..cuz i dun wan any BITCH TALK abt me being so freaking stuck up...i realli cant give any consideration to that ANYMO....:)...

anyhoooss....let me just say that...my trip to miri was the mostt coolestt and funnest and retardestt day everr....ahhaha...like my classmates and i had a trip to curtin university in miri organised by mr.ped..( THANKS MR.PED)..ahah...not like hes gonna read this rite?...ahahah...welllllll veenah came ova my house at like 630 AM cuz she had to follow me to skulll...cuz we had to be there by 7...and then and then....we arrived at skul and i saw alll my cacat friendsss....ok wellll we just talking and laughingg abt howw we have to run to the bus to get gooodd SEats..then annalene comess with sportss shoess..well the thing is we were suppose to wear complete uniform and she just got confused with the information..and sooo..she was freaking outtt...cuz she was afraid they mite not let her go...sooo veenah lent her converse shoes which is black and white ( which by the way is veli cute)..ahahha....but it wasnt totally blackk....AHHHHHHHHHHHHH..whatverr ENOUgh abt the shoes...ahahha..ok weell evrything was cooll in da the end..:P...okie...ermm,......it was fuuunny how when we were at the immigration all the gurls cut the linee...cuz charm started up ..LADIES first..aiyah the guys bein soooo nice they let us cut the line...eheheh...

and then..we just jumping around in the buss alll excitedd..then we arrived at curtin where we were to sit in this reallly reallllyy coollll RRoomm..like all the reallii comfy and bigg chairss...ahhaha...welll actualllyyyy we all tot all their classroomz were like that.but actualllyy we were sitting in the VIP conference roomm....ok ok...curtin was awite..the peeps are quite nice...we met a realli funny dudee....ermmzz..actualllyy im soo lazy to type put the whole thing.let me just SAYYy..charm annalene veeenah safarul and i went bowlingg...hahaha...and safarul belanja uss...cuzz he's just sooo kind hearted..teeheheh...likee we didnt even know how to playyy we kept puttin the ball in the gutter..sooo after awhile we KINDA got the hang of it...well i did...i had like 3-2 strikes...hahah...soo kewll...smiless**...so did charm and veenah...so whenever it didnt GO into the gutter we would just start screaming and laughingg..and doo our victory dances...and evryone would be like staring at US!!!..it was kinda scary cuz it was in parkson..and peepz there are kinda scary..( not trying to be mean k??)..ehhe....yeah it was just funny...we bought shirts at the last minute...and made soooo many pplll pisseddd off....ok i tink veenah blogged abt it..and if u wanna knoww what happened..go to herss okie?...bye lloveee ya...need to go noww...

how does sumone describe hurt?..i guess hurt comes in different formzz...like when u hurt physically or emotionallyy...sumtimess it seems that when hurting by sumone u truly care abt seems ok...but yet in the end isnt it still hurt?...there shouldnt be an excuse for it and there shouldn be explainationss cuz feelingss will never come close to the explainations of the mind..or is it the other way round?..this emotional roller coaster is realli draining me out...i guess its the same for evryone...i cant even name one person who hasnt felt sad or hurt or whatver else that causes them pain..what is this????....why cant i say thingss i want to ....cuz i know that it will never be heardd,,and it gets frustrating...but yet life goess on...u get up and try agenn...

whatss goinn?....not this ageenn!!!!!.....

lost between the pagesss....

i love this songg by bachelor girl.....it realli explains evrythingg..for me..:)...lalalala

i'm just a girl

i might be a little concerned with my hair
i might need comfort more than my share
i might seem to follow fashion and claim that i dont care
my heart is your best friend when it rules your head
i might want to talk alot but dont ask me why?
and i'll get impatient if you dont reply
i might always search alot for something wrong tat i want you to deny
and if you just stay close and hold me when i cry

chorus
Don't try to understand me i'm just a girl
one of the greatest mysteries you will find in this world
im not hard to handle i'm just a girl

i dont steal money but i want your time
cause i give my life to you when you are mine
and it hurts me more than i can say when you pull away
but if you love me you should tell me every day

chorus
you might think i'm demanding
but your not understanding
i like to take advide but go my own way
and when i hurt the most i swear i'm ok
and it's always when you least expect i say i wanna stay
might take a single kiss to steal my heart away

im just a girl..:)

heyy my luvies..hvaent blogged..cant be bottheredd anymo....bt since im online now il jst blog...welll tonnes of things has happenedd..more bad than good actually...bt what to do..life is just like that?....i keep saying that alll the timee...sick of thinking life is unfairr...much more easier to get thru the day like thiss..dark cloudss dark cloudss...lingerrring above my head...

but the scary thing is...i believe that its my fault for allowing it to linger...WhhyY?....i needd to stop maself!!!!!....Mannn...i feeelll as if i am enemy number to myselfff....does that make any sense at alll??....i guesss its good that i realised it noww...so i guess im starting off sloww..baby stepss..baby stepss....i just hopee my stepss arent too sloww....cuz it mite be too late...

......where will i be left then?......

i love you